Matthew Gray Prep

Who Am I?

 * 1) What is my Present State of Being :  I am 26 year old Matthew Gray who is feeling a little agitated because I feel powerless.  The people in power don't seem to give a shit and I just need to know that something is being done and Justice will be served.
 * 2) How do I perceive myself:  Someone who has been abandoned.  It is almost as though I was forgotten and Amy would be forgotten if I didn't do anything about it.  I'm someone who has nothing left to lose and will do anything to get to the bottom of this.  I think I"m lost, scared, not sure how to move forward with my life after all of this has happened.
 * 3) What am I wearing:  Jeans.  A black shirt.  Socks.  My nike shoes.

What are the Circumstances?

 * 1) What time is it? ( The year, the season, the day?  At what time does my selected life begin?):  It's 2020 in the Spring and the date is April 29th, 2020.  The time is 10:38 am.  It took them about 30 minutes after my appointment time to be greeted.
 * 2) Where am I? (In what city, neighborhood, building, and room do I find myself?  Or in what landscape?).  I'm in Santa Monica, California not far from where my sister's murder took place.  More specifically I'm sitting in the police station's interrogation room.  Near the 10 freeway on the exit I used to normally take to get to our place.Unnamed.jpg
 * 3) What surrounds me? (The immediate landscape?  The weather? The condition of the place and the nature of the objects in it?).  I'm in a fairly small room that I wouldn't say is bigger than my current bedroom.  I'm sitting on a padded metal folding chair that has either turned puke green from what I assume is overuse.  It's lined with a cold metal.  There's a mirror in front of me me which I can only assume would be a two way one so that this conversation can be monitored.  There's some flourescent lights above to light the room dimly.  The walls are lined with a sterile color of white on top and maybe the same kind of blue they use in the navy.
 * 4) What are the immediate circumstance? ( What has just happened, is happening?  What do I expect or plan to happen next and later on?):  I've been brought into this interrogation room to finally speak with detective Gibbs the man who is more directly in charge of my sister's case.  He just asked me to provide him with any information that he thinks would be relevant to the case.  I have photos of us from that very night December 14th, 2019 because it was my birthday that I'm showing him.  I expect to call him out for losing track of the witness who saw who the killer was.

What are my relationships?

 * 1) How do I stand in relationship to the circumstances, the place, the objects, and the other people related to my circumstances?

Detective Gibbs:
He is responsible for my sister's case and he is currently looking for the witness. It's his fault that the witness went missing.

What do I want?

 * 1) What is my main objective?  My main objective is to achieve some sort of justice for what happened to my sister.  My immediate need or objective?  To be useful and to make sure something is getting done because everyone is sitting on their ass.  To provide the agent with all the relevant information that I have.

What is my obstacle?

 * 1) What is in the way of what I want? The witness going missing.  My damn memory betraying me. How do I overcome it? Make Agent Gibbs get to the bottom of this.  Get the gun they found in jail.  By gaining strength so I can bypass the trauma.

What do I do to get what I want?

 * 1) How can I achieve my objective?  By being helpful and providing the information they need.  To achieve some sense of urgency to really get them moving.  What's my behavior?  What are my actions?  To accuse.  To relay.  To confess.  To move.  To provide.  To help.